scented with pine and Eucalyptus and some flower I don’t recognize. I soak it up and relish it--all the way to the car. Then I’m buzzing off to the next thing, focused on what must be done, what should have already been done, what needs to get on my list of things to do. Thank God for all of you and the times we talk or visit. Without those moments of stillness and presence, I might never slow
down until I dropped from frantic busyness.
I tell myself that this will ease soon. We’ll hire a new secretary and I can hand off the things I’m doing that he or she would do. I’ll find a better, more organized system and streamline my to-do list. I know these things can help. But I also know from long experience that these can turn into myths, idols that I chase right into exhaustion while the rich life Jesus promised, the glory and beauty of now, never materializes. When I’m this overactive, I’m not present in my own life, in the moment that is unfolding now. I’m not present with God as he blesses me, and I fear not being present to others when I’m meant to bless them.
That’s why I’m working on Sabbath this Lent. I know it’s about more than just stillness or slowing down. I know from experience that Sabbath is healing, renewing, and a blessing--but not simple, and sometimes not easy. I want to explore this in a new way during these 40 days, and learn what the Holy Spirit has to teach me about how to live a renewed life, steeped in Sabbath-keeping, present in
the moment, and rich with the love and provision of God; and how to carry God’s love and blessing to others.
May your Lent be rich in all of these things, as well.